The presence

And from all the treasures that people have had shared with me is presence. 

So my biggest value that i would put higher price than diamonds is. Be. 

Be with someone. 

Be with someone in whatever they are in, because in hard times you show your real side. This is how you can gain a friend, and someone you know changes into someone you trust. 

To be honest that you are not ok. 

To be honest that it is not ok to be rejected over and over again. 

To admind that you are caring a pain so heavy that it is hard to breath. 

I don´t remember how does it feel to feel safe, that I´m scared and my body goes into emotional reaction on allowing myself to think that I could feels safe with someone.

Be honest that I feel like tears are so close as sniff away, that even though I feel on edge the pain doesn´t want to come out. 

Everyone is going through their own pain, would anyone want to have to go through what I´´m going through, I would not wish that to anyone, and my pain might not be my fault, but it is my responsibility. 

So many times I thought, If only I could share this with someone, not like hiding behind the mask of “I’m fine”. I’m not having any grudge to people that they don’t understand, I’m just feeling this scream inside waiting to go out. 

Out of anger

Out of faith

That pulled me on this loalney road, that no one want’s to talk with me, about what is important to me. 

Me. me, me…

Through all of the ands,

I reveal all of the things that I want to say 

Myself is speaking through, but a story want’s to be heard,

one after another I share what Is important to me, 

but not much personal things, that comes with the unspoken.

Be with someone and really open up. But it seems like I’m the only person that I can do that with. 

What If I can be present with me, and just be with myself?